california dreamin

As of lately ive been thinking alot about dreams. Not the creepy ones that happen when you sleep...but ambitions,desires and goals i have for my life. I have so many things i want to do in my lifetime, but how do i know if its what God wants for me? I know he places things in our heart what he wants us to persue, but which ones do i do? I dont want to live a normal life. I dont want to go to college, get married and then settle down, have kids and just work or something like how most of the population of todays culture does. I want to do so much with my life. I want to travel and see the world, i want to be on a mission feild somewhere, i wanna go to CFNI and IHOP to do worship stuff,learn another language, go on a surfing vacation and just surf amazing beaches for a month, write a book, live in colorado, i want to do awesome ministry things, change the way christians are viewed in todays society, change the way the gay community views christians, save marriages, prevent abortions, go to grad school, get a phD....so much! I feel like i have so little time to do it, or even TRY to accomplish some of those things.

Often times we pray for 'open doors' or a direct 'yes' from God when asking for a direction, but why do we do that? Why dont we just go and do it! If God wants us to do something he will let it happen. But realistically, when would i ever have time to do all this? And i always forget that these things cost a lot of money. I mean God did place all these things in my soul for a reason right? If he didnt want me thinking about them i dont think he would have placed them there. The ability to dream is a blessing and a curse at the same time, it makes me passionate and excited about so many different things but at the same time makes me view reality in a harsh way, knowing that more then half of my dreams will never get to happen. I'm only one person, a tiny person...it will be merely impossible for all these goals to be accomplished successfully by myself.


...His love is boundless

im a garbowsky!

im a garbowsky!

Its quite amazing what God can do in a year. Double that and make it 2 years. I was honored to play on an amazing worship team for about a year and a half with amazing talented worshippers. Its funny the life cycle, i got really upset going to school, having to leave my team, but i came back and we just grew so much. Pastor walter decided to move on, and my beloved ministry is over. God really does have seasons for everything, i would have not met the amazing people i did if it werent for Upper Room. I would not be who i am today if it werent for that, i grew emotionally, musically and spiritually. Its really hard to seperate from a team whom you worship with for hours, more then once a week. When we are in the Spirit its like our souls join together to worship the Lord..its hard leaving that. Im sad to see everything end but im also really excited to see what is next. There were some really really amazing words spoken over the team tonight and this past week. Im excited to see how God is going to send us all out in different directions. He already has sent us out seperatly, melanie being at christ for the nations, me being at valley forge, matt and pete working full time, jubin doing jericho falls, julie still in highschool where she is ministering to her peers by her lifestyle...im sure the worship team isnt over...we always seem to find each other and find time to worship together.

Well my title is true, im a garbowsky for a week. Im crashing at julies because i am teaching adorable kidergardeners this week at VBS. Ill be alone most of the time cause julie is working so call me to hang out! (Ill be in jersey for the next 2 weeks, one week in south plainfeild, the next week at my shore house..call me!) Thats another thing im also excited about cause they are so cute and eager to learn about Jesus! Im praying that this week God will teach me to have child like faith- who better to learn from then children! im sure i will have lots to say about this week. I was at church for over 14 hours today doing worship, what an amazing (but extremely exhausting) time....i have a new found appreciation for bands who go on tour, having to play shows every night for a really long time, then sleeping on a bus and having to wake up and do it all again the next day, what an exciting but very exhausting life.

im extremely delerious at this point....i've been up since 7, played piano and sang for 9 hours and only had a chicken sandwhich the whole day. I think its time to turn it in....





......His love is boundless

3 is the magic number

What an amazing week. As it comes to an end, ive just learned so much. On sunday i was really dreading doing VBS for a whole week, and now its actually almost over! i cant believe it, and i loved every second of it. After 3 years of doing VBS this year was definatly my favorite. I loved being in a classroom and teaching the kids, and building a relationship with them. I love children cause they are so forgiving. Its almost unbelieveable, i really want to be like them. This one boy, brandon, is crazy insane and he literally bounces off walls, jumps off tables and just in general doesnt listen. We've yelled at him and everything! Yet at the end of the day he always seems to give me a hug or smiles and tells me he will see me tomorrow. Children are just so willing to learn, and want to know everything! Thats why they always ask "Why?"

In the book of Matthew, Jesus talks about rank in heaven, the disciples ask who is going to be the best? Jesus says people who are most like the children. Why? because of their humility and faith. Children are so humble. They really have no sense of pride at all. They dont mind being silly cause its just so much fun! They dont really care if they dont know you, they will be themselves and make themselves look stupid cause they dont care! They dont mind leaping into your arms when you tell them to jump because they know you are going to catch them. Its amazing really. They do things without question..I love childrens honesty also, its so funny. They dont mind being honest cause they dont mind getting embarrassed.

i loved tonight and how Aimee, a 5 year old girl who isnt even in my class came up to me and sat next to me and started talking about why there are different languages in the world, and how that happened? Then we started talking about hair, and her family. Its stuff like that, that only happens when a child is there, and i love every second of it.



can you guess which one brandon is?






......His love is boundless