procrastination

hello readers!

Im actually really excited that people read my blog. Often i feel like when i blog im talking to dead air. Now that i know people actually check in with me makes me feel good. Well happy (almost) gotcha day to our china girls! I cant believe its been a whole stinkin year! Where does the time go. I looked at gracie today and said "Grace if you only knew..." Not only did our lives completely change last year but so did hers. That girl has experienced more in her (almost) 2 years of living then i probably ever will. She was born, abandoned, found, placed in an institution with strangers (and some cutie baby friends) for 10 months, taken out of that environment, given to crazy loud strangers, then taken to america to meet more crazy loud strangers that slowly became family. I just stop and think (and i encourage you to do the same) and close my eyes and try to place myself in her shoes. Who did she see, what did she get abandoned in..what were some of the sights, sounds and smells she came to know when she was alone? I just close my eyes and put myself in her place, on her back looking up towards the sky, or ceiling..what did she hear? Was she just waiting for us..I honestly believe in my heart she knew we were coming for her, and thats why she survived as long as she did. We all know gracie is a strong willed baby girl she is a fighter to have made it out alive in that orphanage because she knew when we'd get her we would love her and fatten up her skinny little legs to match all of our not so skinny italian ones. Okay enough sentiment.


To touch a little more on my last post, God has just been revealing to me daily what grace means. I was doing a homework assignment for Biblical Theology tonight and the whole chapter was about Genesis. How grace was used for the first time in the story of Noah. The author of this book says " It will become clearer the Gods grace is the cause of sinful people becoming righteous. Grace then is an attitude of God for the good of those who do not deserve good. This book is blowing my mind, well just this chapter i guess. The author put the story of adam in eve in such a way that was never taught to me before. Adam and Eve ate the fruit because they wanted to know the difference between good and evil right? Well the author says that Adam and Eve could have learned the difference between good and evil by rejecting evil and remaining good and pure, but instead they rejected the good and became evil. Isnt that mind blowing? That through all of our muck and evil 'humanness' God remains faithful with his love? I wonder what God is trying to teach me because hes been revealing all these different messages of Grace to me the past couple days.

This week will fly by, since i had no classes today- and tomorrow is already tuesday. Next thursday i already have a midterm. I cant believe it, where is the semester going!? I need to start studying soon. I am not being as studious as i had hoped. Me and my room mate joke and call it pre-mature senior-itis. I have all these things on my to-do list and its just not getting done. I used to get things done weeks in advance...not so much anymore. And its not even like i am not doing it cause i want to go out and have fun, because its not-and i dont. I go to bed super early most nights (well for a college student)...i dont know what it is. i blame senior-itis.